E&H: Best FF's

This past weekend Erica Tighe came to visit me and I can honestly say neither of us have laughed as hard as we did this weekend in a L O N G time.

We adventured around Sacramento and made a day trip to San Francisco. SF held many mis-adventures that, while stressful at the time, lead to some good laughs after the fact! I will miss her terribly as she leaves on her mission to Brazil, & I was so glad that we got to have one last amazing weekend together!!

Miss you already E!

::Tra La La::

Morgan&Connor

Morgan Reed:

Connor Reed:

Hailey&Ethan

NEWS!

So of course Im behind on this darned thing... when am I not? But, I have some delightful/terrifying/exciting news.

I Am Moving Back To Chicago

Not til January, and I will only have lived in California for a little over a year; but I feel as though it has been MUCH longer already. Its been like being on a vacation from real life, from the real world. When I came out here I desperately needed to get away. I was in such a dark rut, creatively and emotionally. So when the chance to come out here for a while came, I just jumped at it. California is beautiful. I have had a wonderful little love affair with it. But all affairs must come to an end mustn't they? I will greatly miss the beach, my heart will ache for the beach. And for the hilly San Francisco streets and all the memories I once had there. And of course the Reeds have become my second family and I will miss their whole clan just so much.

I feel as though I have been here for years, but at the same time its like my life has been put on pause. I worked constantly and never really made much of a concerted effort to establish my own little life out here, I never really became a part of any community. I think deep down I knew that I didnt belong here. I need crisp, cold days and sky high buildings. (Granted I could find that in SF, but its just so cramped Id feel suffocated). 

I need to go back to reality. Haha, my life is full of fresh starts and moving around and changing. But I like it that way. I dont like too much of the same thing for very long, Id prefer to have lots of different adventures. Before I settle in back in Chicago I am going to make a trip to either Paris for a solo adventure, or Edinburgh to visit the one good friend that I did make out west here. I need to see something that puts me in Awe. I need to breathe deeply, to breathe deeply in a place rich in History, and Art, and Culture. I always say I want to do this, so I am making myself do it now. Before I get tied up in rent that needs to be paid and jobs that I have to go to. 

So Onward and Upward dear ones, on to the next Great Adventure. 

Deep Breath. 

From "The Poem Cat"

"Sometimes the poem

darts away

like a coy lover

who is afraid of being possessed,

of feeling too much,

of losing her essential

loneliness-which she calls

freedom."

-E. Jong

Anxious.

Feeling so small and anxious today.

Feeling like my soul is in a vice and 
every time I try to think the vice is squeezed harder.

Makes it difficult to breath.

Just one of those days I suppose

Bio

I have to write a bio for a local art magazine that is showcasing some of my work, why they are or how they found me I have no idea. None-the-less I have to write an "artists bio".... Not a clue what to write. 

girl gypsy with a camera in my hands and the entire 

world at my feet. it's a tough job to choose which moments 

to keep alive forever, but i live for it. this is my work.

Maybe that is how it should start. Or maybe that is all it should say.

Mindreader?

Wouldnt it be nice if people could read your mind? But only when you wanted them to. Not all the time- haha that would be very problematic for me. No, only when you wanted to say something but couldn't, or were too scared to. People, more specifically a person, could just KNOW what you wanted them to know. Maybe I'll invent a button that does that? Or if someone else wants to invent one let me know and I'll jump on the bandwagon.

Model: Kara

With Edie Sedgwick being a long-time love of mine we decided to do a shoot inspired by her. We found some really amazing locations and had a fantastic adventure in the meantime.

Creating

Today I am daydreaming about what it will be like when I have Made It. You know, living the life I feel like I was meant to. So many people have lives that they would like to live, or that they think "ooo wouldnt that be nice"- well I intend to actually do it. I will have a lovely little apartment again with a wonderful space for creating things. One of the places I will live will be Paris. I will be so happy. I will be surrounded with beautiful things. So many people say they want a similar life, but it's not so much that I want these things, as it is that I need them. I need them. I need to live in a place where people care about the things that I do. Where, for people, getting dressed doesn't mean throwing on sweatpants, it means putting on an Art Show. Where people consider art daily. It will happen. I am going to make it happen. 

Maybe it is a fantasy land. Even so, I will find it. 

Aren't these all just so divine?