Thursday, December 16, 2010

Long Time Gone...

So I haven't written or posted anything in quite a long time, and to be quite honest my inconsistency doesn't surprise, but it does disappoint me. I only have 3 nights left as a California resident. Im getting really down about it actually. Sure I am looking forward to seeing my friends and family back home, but part of my heart will remain here. When I decided to move to California I thought it was going to be long term. I expected to put down some roots and start a life out here, and it feels a little bit like I failed. I know that my going home has nothing to do with Failure and what started out as a rash decision turned into something that I need to do for family reasons... But still. A small part of me has let myself down.

There are so many amazing things about living here. So many fantastic people. Just this week I made some new friends that I wish I was going to be able to spend more time getting to know. But this is life. People get shuffled about and its all an Adventure. So it is all I can do to participate by looking forward to my next Great Adventure.

She looks for 
where ever she goes


  1. I'm sorry to hear about your move! California will definitely miss you! I wish you all the best <3

    xoxo coco

  2. Though my first instinct is to attempt to reassure you that you haven't failed, instead I empathize. Because life is unexpected, and while you might hope for a particular chapter to unfold or path to emerge, often something entirely different comes about.
    I'm definitely in such a place myself at present- I adore the Twin Cities, am so excited about planning my wedding to a lovely gentleman that it keeps me up at night sometimes, but in certain ways I feel like I've let the 'Lauren of yesteryear' down. I had so many plans for travel, for change, for constant new experiences, and while I still can have those they look very different that I had imagined in high school/college.
    Regardless, life goes on, in unexpected ways. I am excited to see you soon and do something resembling catching up on the years that have passed since we've seen each other last :)